HOW I FEEL about WAR

Today is one of many days that i feel sad...i can not help to feel this way. I am bless with a beautiful family but i feel so empty and broken. I wish that i can understand myself and feel super happy but i can not.

What i think about war with no meaning... Everyday i recall seeing a child face and crying out for help. His image is in my heart and mind just like a tattoo that will never go away. I got to see children starving and dress in raggedy clothes. I have ask GOD why me? But so far i have no answer as of why i had to experience a cruel reality. Let say that facing reality is more disturbing than watching over the news or reading about it in the internet or printed media.

How can i forget the image of a little girl who was six years old, but she looked like a 9 month old baby, because she had a heart problem and her parents wanted American doctors to rescue her. She was so fragile and her eyes were socked in and her lips were dry and chapped.
Ohh poor child ..why were you left behind in a misery. What had you done.. Why were you born?
What was i to do when your parents had to be seacrh and go into a system that said sorry i can not help you. We do not have the facility nor the tools to perform a surgery.

Your parents walked away and i never got to see you again. Many days have gone by and i still remember people coming from all over the place just to seek medical help and the American and Italian doctors were loved by them.
How can i forget the pain and sorrow that WAR causes in innocent people. How can i forget if i have a role in it. Freedom will never be freedom....

I wish one day i can smile again.. for now i live day by day being thankful to my lord for having my family.